The Spirit of Accusation

I was lying in bed sleeping when suddenly I was caught up into a vision trance.

Looking above me towards the ceiling of the room I was in, I could see a brown looking stain, as if some gross liquid had been spilled there, which I knew to be representative of my struggles with accusation.

Suddenly, the power of the Holy Spirit came upon me so strongly that it felt like every single fiber of my being was saturated in Him; it started at the lower part of my body and went all the way up to my head and was everywhere except for... Except for my heart...

Then my attention was drawn to my friend whose bed was across the room from mine. An argument began to commence between the two of us. It got extremely heated and the vision ended with him using profanity and yelling at me.

The interpretation of this vision is simple. God is saying to me and to all of His church that the stain of gossip has blocked the heaven's for too long. He's saying that when slander and accusation remain in our lives, we cannot experience His presence in the fullness that He desires for us. All faultfinders end up with hardened hearts. The Lord is identifying the spirit of accusation as being the reason there is so much division in the Body of Christ. Unity commands the blessing, so what does disunity do?

Reflecting upon this and looking back over the course of my life I can see clearly now what I could not see when I was immersed in this spirit of accusation...

The entire Summer of 2008 I had been speaking out against a particular set of ministers. I called them "false prophets" and the like, which are very common titles to throw around when you have the same disease that I did... To me, most churches were "off" (except, predictably, my own) and the majority of present day ministers were full of compromise for not preaching my flavor of Jesus... I was an expert at seeing specks in other people's eyes...

My insecurity caused me to marginalize genuine prophets who disagreed with my past opinions with titles like "False Prophet", and if somebody didn't agree with my points of doctrine I actually thought they were preaching a false gospel!

What's funny is that I was actually creating a false gospel by adding criteria other than faith in Jesus' death, burial and resurrection in order to be a "real Christian"...

I wonder how many churches could be built by collecting the logs from all our eyes...

We've got some uprooting to do.

"For the whole law is fulfilled in one word, in the statement, "You shall love your neighbor as yourself." But if you bite and devour one another, take care that you are not consumed by one another..." (Galatians 5:14-15).

"If Only My people would believe..."

It was evening time and I was waiting in silence before the Lord, which is one of my favorite things to do...

Suddenly, the presence of God came strongly upon me in such a way that it felt as though I was spinning forward in my spirit.

Next thing I know, my spirit is caught up into the throne room of God. I first found myself standing between two giant pillars... As I looked out from between them, I could see what seemed to be elders standing around.

Then I heard a booming voice, "Who is this that enters the council of God?"

I looked up to see that He who sat on the throne was huge and looked as though He were made of stone, yet He moved! I felt rather small before Him, I was only as tall as His ankle!

This wasn't exactly a calming moment, and I was quite intimidated as I walked into the center of the room, towards the throne of God Himself, and said, "It is I, Jason, Your servant, and I come to you in mercy... I mean humility..."

The right words were a bit hard to find...

While I was still taking in the fact that I had just destroyed all hope of sounding eloquent, He drew in His breath and let out a heavy sigh, and said, "If only My people would believe..."

The rapture ended and I was back in my room...

This powerful experience really challenged me on how I viewed the things that are most important to God.

To be honest, cultivating a mindset of faith wasn't at the top of my to-do list, and I really thought that if God would be tolerant of anything, it would be a lack of faith. Boy was I wrong!

In this experience, I did the same thing that I think many Christians do when we approach God, we have our eyes looking to the floor and we walk very carefully, because we think that having a lack of confidence before God is somehow pleasing to Him and is a sign of our humility...

Beloved, this behavior that manifests when we come into the presence of God has its roots in a powerful deception that says that we are somehow unworthy to come before Him... It is actually a spirit of condemnation who speaks accusations about us to our own consciences, planting a root of unbelief that causes us to mistrust the finished work of the Cross...

In this experience the Father gave me a glimpse into the burden in His heart, and His deep desire for His children to come before His throne with boldness! (Hebrews 4:16)

The Father desires those who would come before Him without any self doubt at all... His Spirit cries out for a generation to arise that is so confident in His heart for them and the fact that He has paid the whole price for their sins, that they simply won't see any logic in acting small and unsure of themselves before Him.

This generation won't need to be afraid of abusing the grace of God as though it were a license to sin, because such a thought would come contrary to their burning and passionate desire to go to greater depths with Him.

Don't let the enemy rob you of your confidence, don't let him tread upon the cleansing power of the blood of Christ!

Beloved, how sad it would be if we strive to fulfill all of the Christian virtues, and we end up missing the main point of everything that Jesus taught...

Faith.